Off Balance

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Where to start today?

OK, maybe I do have to admit that I am stressed, stretched to my limit.

A couple of days ago I walked into the garage to find my freezer was bleeding. That’s what it looked like! A big gooey dark liquid streak was fanning out across the floor. There was a second line drawn on the floor, too, only light in color. Damn. I didn’t close the door all the way. There goes probably $100 or more in food.
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Identifying a Legacy

Friday, May 20, 2011

From what we hear, Dave was given a standing ovation as he was voted for recommendation as faculty emeritus to the college trustees. We also heard that plenty of “seconds” were cast at the call for the nomination. I am not surprised! Video at 11:00, as they say. I am anxious to get a copy of the taped meeting.
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This Date in Time

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Wow. May 18. I was thinking how beautiful and special the Pacific Northwest is on these days that the sun is out at 6:00 am, leaving shadows and sunbeams throughout the house. This is my favorite time of the day. After record rains the past couple of months I bask in a few moments of the sun’s energizing rays. Now, if were just warm enough to have my tea outside…
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How Are You?

Thursday, May 12, 2011

How are you? These three ubiquitous words can stop me in my tracks. With each passing day the question becomes more complicated. How are you? We throw around this question all the time. I do. At the grocery store, as quick recognition in place of good morning, when opening the front door in greeting, breaking the ice of a telephone conversation. How are you? Do we expect an honest answer? Even in the best of life circumstances?
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Giving Birth

Sunday, May 08, 2011

It’s Mother’s Day. When you read about grief and loss all the time this is a sad day for sure: Children missing mothers; mothers missing children.

I spent my writing time this morning composing words for my mother. I guess it’s long overdue. It was good exercise of random memories, and a gift for us both to ponder.
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Find Someone Who Gets It

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

I have just returned home from having coffee with a good friend.  Kris and I worked together during our pregnancies 25 years ago. She was the first to arrive at the hospital with her six week old Addy in arms when our daughter Leah was born. Our girls spent the first six years together most days of the week as I provided childcare off and on; they were true playmates. Our families used to say it took four parents to raise two children. We were Momma Joan and Daddy Dave; Momma Kris and Daddy Andy. Us girls ate lots of McDonald’s Happy Meals, shopped, played and learned together. Holidays, birthdays, gardening, preschool, field trips to children’s and science museums were the order of those days.

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Time’s Gift

Sunday, May 1, 2011

A new month. The calendar feels like an enemy. The clock is always ticking. I often sense what hasn’t been done after each day, each week and especially as I turn the page of a calendar. This attitude is purely a confluence of personality quirks – high expectations on myself, independent, list maker, analyzer. I try to concentrate on what is really important in the moments (and for the most part I do) but somewhere, at sometime in any given week the “should” creeps in. I should have gotten to the store today, I should have finished that task, I should have brought Dave this, I should have remembered, I should have, and even a few I shouldn’t have. Regardless, these are pressures I put on myself and are mostly based on worries about our, and singularly my, future.

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