Still Here

Saturday December 31, 2011

Yes, of course, it’s the last day of 2011. Looking backward, looking forward. We all do this; it’s predictable and the topic can be anticipated in any blog or journal, public and private.

I have been fighting myself all week. Depressed? Exhausted? Post holiday again? My motivation and energy extend just to me and Dave, the bare minimum of care and feeding of us both. And this morning… it is the last day of 2011, ready or not. That means tomorrow I face a new year, a new beginning, right?

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Staying Out Ahead

Friday, December 23, 2011

Two days before Christmas. I have all sorts of observational minutiae ping-ponging through my head about life, holidays and Dave. I’ve been writing but not posting because I can’t seem to get anything finished. My feelings are more complex now and more difficult to articulate. I’m sure it is all exacerbated by the holiday ____. (I’ll stop at “holiday” because there are too many roads to follow on this thought.)

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Change is in the Air

Saturday, December 17, 2011

We started a private Facebook page for the extended family to stay in touch and for me to post some updates about Dave’s health. It’s nice because most of us use Facebook including the grandchildren. We don’t even have to be “friends” to send messages this way!

It’s a funny place to share at times. But here I can provide one message so everyone accesses the same message. Responds are also shared equally. Social media has changed the way people communicate.
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Through the Doorway

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Aaaaarhg. I’d love to let out a good long scream. Maybe that would help in some way.

I’ve had a million narratives in my mind this morning with my two cups of coffee. I really must go back to my half-decaf blend. I think too much. (However, it is nice to be a brilliant poet in those moments!)
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Snippets of Life

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

I have just a few minutes this morning before I get on a scheduled business call; a few minutes to dump into perspective all sorts of moments from the last couple of weeks.

Dave is changing. Until I could admit that the many little snippets of information coming to me equals change, I have just been gathering data bits for my brain file. There is nothing remarkable about his vital signs, or most recent nurse’s visit. Yet, there is a change.
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Easing Pain

Friday, December 02, 2011

I’m pondering a couple of words this morning: Writing and pain.

I almost didn’t publicly post Wednesday’s journal on losing my glasses. It seemed crazy. I don’t want people to get the wrong idea about my state of mind. I worry enough! Yet, these life challenges push one’s state of mind to funny edges. Writing and pain.

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