Better

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Creatinine down a full point to 3.1 today! Less IV fluids given. Only 3 hours at Group Health today! Do it all again tomorrow. Time for a nap.

Overload

Friday, January 28, 2011

I have just a few minutes this morning: meet Tamela at the gym for my treadmill therapy; take Dave to Group Health for liquid nourishment, and then on to complete Miss M’s crosses with her daughter.  When will I post blogs, FB update, read e-mails respond and build the other new elements of SFH? Oh, and there’s a follow up call appointment, too. I may need to start the world of mobile connections.  That doesn’t sound so good!
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Ambiguity

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Whew. I have only been up a few minutes and I have my head SPINNING with runaway thoughts.

Ah, the actual keying of letters is slowing me down. That’s a good thing!
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Exquisitely Sensitive

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Can it be? A redness along the bridge of his nose? Mid-sentence (mine) Dave said “My skin feels rough on my nose!”  Get out the eyeglasses. Yes, I see it. Just a few small patches of redness on the bridge, the thinnest skin on his nose. Wow. Really?  I look again. Yep. Like an area of patchy sunburn almost. Anywhere else? Aw, no. My prediction was that it would be at least a week before we could even think about this symptom. Hope in a rash.

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Musing on Life, Death and What’s in Between

Monday, January 24, 2011

Routine is good.*

*I immediately wanted to add an asterisk to my post yesterday. It was a moment that I had to stop writing for the sake of story as well as it was time to get dressed for my walk. If you read much about grief, loss and bereavement you’ll come across the concept of “the new normal.” Loss brings about new traditions, new approaches, a life changed. The old ways are gone and irretrievable. Then there is the new normal. (“Thing should be back to normal by now” someone will say eventually) Living with Stage IV Cancer or any equivalent sentence brings the new normal to bear in smaller doses.

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Unexpected

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Friday night at 8:30 pm the Tarceva was put to work. Dave swallowed his first dose of the new chemo regimen. We thought 8:30 would be good since it is at least 2 hours after dinner time and evening pills. This means I’ll need to make sure dinner is consistently on the table by 6:00, but that shouldn’t be a problem.
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Rooting for a Rash

Friday, January 21, 2011 9:45 am post appointment, breakfast

We’re home. It was a quick appointment considering the emotional ramping up for chemo. We had three prescriptions filled- Tarceva, the “Smart Pill” which has a job description “to kill cancer cells” according to the info sheet. Yep. That’s good.
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Anticipating Chemo

Friday, January 21, 2011. 6:30 am

I’m on edge this morning.

First, Dave sees Dr. L and will get his first Chemo treatment. I have been able to sit to the side of this appointment emotionally until yesterday. I know that Dave began fussing as soon as radiation was over last Friday. Perhaps before. I think it was Friday, maybe even Thursday last week that he mentioned there was new drug in his prescriptions list. (We have online access and refill for medicines and all our records. Very cool. Dave takes about a dozen medicines daily at breakfast and dinner.) It is a chemo pill. The Smart Bomb? On Monday I dropped into Dave’s home study to chat. He was looking up the drug.
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